Be still and know that I'm not God.

To move or not move. That is the question... at least today that's the question. ;) Moving can be spiritual, actually one of my most beloved songs is 'You Move Me' by Susan Ashton. My hubby and I have lived in the same town all our days, so the thought of moving should be frightening to me... right? But it's not. I have a lot of peace about the *possibility* of a move. So unlike me. It's moments like this that I can see the growth that God has allowed me to experience. Isn't He SO awesome??

Humaness in overdrive today.

Well, I can officially say that I'm not the best auntie ever. I blew it today, but when I mess things up (which is often) I always run to Jesus pretty quickly. Today the topic that sent me running to my Big Daddy was competitiveness between my daughter and niece. They are very close in age, my niece is 8 months older and have I mentioned yet that my niece (and my sister) lives with us? Well, she has since she was three and there was abandonement by her daddy of her family. My hubby and I felt led to open our home to them, and haven't regretted the decision a little over two years later. The three children are being raised as siblings and I believe they are all better for the situation. But. Today we celebrated my daughter's fifth birthday a couple days early. She is not one to seek the spotlight or attention, she has a very gentle spirit and is easily content with her life. My niece seeks attention all the time and doesn't handle it well when her cousin receives any, it is really disturbing to me. I don't know how to handle this. Up to now the way I've handled it has been to blow up when I just can't take correcting her 'just one more time'. So embarrassing.

Now that I've taken time to write it out, I've gotta get back to my Big Daddy on this one. I pray there is some clarity in here somewhere because our relationship needs healing and a fresh start.

The Zone

I realize that now I do know how to post entries. I'm kinda psyched about that, but now what do I write about? I'm a wife, a mommy, an aunt, a sister, daughter and friend. I think I have more titles than that, but none of them matter as much as being a child of Christ. That's my best title and the one I desire to reflect if you'd meet me in person. Not that being the other things isn't important, on the contrary I adore being in the family God has blessed me with. I'm just aware that my relationship with my creator is eternal. No other relationship in my life will (or has) last as long as that one. He has been with me all my days and knows my past better than even I do.

My life for the last eight years has been defined by His revelation to me about generational sin and bondage in my life/family. The result has been immeasurable freedom and joy. There have been tears shed along the way, many laughs and numerous 'oh my gosh, I can not believe I did that' moments, too. I'm pretty much being overhauled and rebuilt from the ground, up. So, my blog will reflect something of a spiritual construction zone. It's pretty accurate. ;)

Testing...

So I am SO new to the world of blogging that I don't know how to do it, yet. I'm actually writing this as a practice post. Is there such a thing? I should have a mentor of some kind. ;)