I'm reading the book 'Redeeming Love' by Francine Rivers for at least the third time. Have you read it? I think many of us can relate to the character of Sarah/Angel/Amanda/Mandy/Tirzah. She is in a good place of healing and then along comes Paul, reminding her of her past and what could've been for Michael every time she sees him. Can you imagine? The pain of being reminded of your past at every turn? And then I realized over the last couple of days that I can do that to myself. I nearly aid Satan in his attacks by not fighting him off.
So today I am going to begin reading 'Battlefield of the Mind' by Joyce Meyers. I have had the book on my bookshelf for many years but have never sat down to read it. Foolishly, I bought the book as a resource but didn't think I'd need that kind of book because my walk was so strong. A raging battle has been brought to my doorstep and I need to be equipped. I had a dream many years ago of demons running/stampeding through a mall. I was in a store upstairs with a couple of people and I heard the pounding of the feet. I knew it was trouble. There were ashes left everywhere they'd gone. People were screaming and frozen with fear. I walked to the half glass wall next to the escalators/stairs that allowed me to see below and stood my ground. I knew that they couldn't approach me, much less could they hurt me. That woman is still within me. I know that Satan will not win this battle.
I haven't visited this blog in many months. I'm not at all proud of my failings as a human, except that it reminds me of my humanness. I have always referred to God as the ultimate scrapbooker since he leaves no scrap unused in our lives. Every trip or splatter that I've had He's used in some form or another. I am always thankful when I get to sit with a beloved girlfriend and we share what we've screwed up on. I'm not one to celebrate shortcomings, lest I be misunderstood, however, I do appreciate a good belly laugh when I realize we try so hard to be perfect in our walks and we can not be so. But we keep striving to be the very best version of ourselves, with God's direction, patience and grace. Oh, but with His grace for real.
