WWF

It's been a mighty long time since I've written.  I'd love to say I've been finding the cure to cancer or something profound, but truly I've been living a normal life... probably much like you.  :) November was incredibly busy.  I traveled or had guests every weekend that month.  What may sound crazier is that I was in a blissful state.  My sister and I took our daughters to NYC to do the American Girl thing.  My daughter has always loved everything animal while my niece has always loved dolls and is very girly.  My plan was to purchase a doll for my niece and if my daughter was interested I'd get her one, too.  But she had to be really interested, not just wanted them for their pets if ya know what I mean.  Well, it was quite the sight to see my girl fall in love with (drum roll, please) Felicity. 

Another weekend we traveled to Philadelphia to visit a girlfriend and her daughter.  It was a really, really nice day and it was difficult to leave after such a short visit.  She is just one of those people that God has put in my life who is absolutely precious to me.  We've been through a lot of spiritual growth together.  She's one of the (literally) few people in my life that I can speak of deep spiritual matters with and in the same conversation talk about how great it would be if our husband's could listen to us like our girlfriends do.

In the midst of living some mighty great days, I've also had struggles.  God has revealed to me another thing He is breaking me free from and I'm struggling with it.  Even as I write that I wonder how on earth that is possible.  The creator and lover of my soul wants to help me and I'm battling Him.  I feel like I should be a WWF wrestler, ya know?  But, to me this is a biggie.  One of those relationships in my life that has defined me and I've given it too much authority in my life.  I don't know what my new normal will be like when this is resolved.  I know that resolution is coming, I have strong faith in that.  I believe that He will finish the work He has started and that it wouldn't have been brought up if He didn't plan on changing it.  I also know that He works all things out for my good.  I can say without hesitation that I have the gift of faith in my walk with God. 

Recently God has also been showering me with blessings.  I'm pretty blown away by the enormity of how He displays His heart for me.  That He loves me so much that He would allow me to truly have the desires of my heart, that no one but Him knows about.  Then there's just plain out gratitude for the things that I have.  For example I've got a dishwasher. A washing machine for my clothes and a dryer to dry the same clothes.  It's 24* outside and my heat works very hard to keep my home comfortable.  I'm really thankful for those things.  Those and the tires on my truck.  I'm acutely aware most of the time how helpful my tires are to me.  I thank God for them all the time.  That's the heart of me.

One day my friend I will share much more with great gusto all the great and kind things my Savior has done for me.  The fact that He gave me the opportunity to have life everlasting with Him is incredible to me.  But that He allows me to walk with Him here?  Now?  Seriously.  I haven't the words to describe my gratitude.