Sunday, January 23, 2011

Was that necessary?

My feelings were hurt!  God warned me early Friday morning that I was about to get my feelings hurt and Steve was going to be the one to console me.  I couldn't sleep, it was awful.  So I asked God if He would prevent it from happening and there was silence on the other end of the conversation. I decided that all day Friday I would mind my own business and stay indoors, even avoiding the grocery store.  Not that big a deal, it was 22* outside and I wasn't feeling the vibe to play outside.  I thought if God wasn't going to stop it from happening I was going to not participate.  It sounded logical to me, though I know that that's not how things really work out.  Well, fast forward a couple days and it happened.  And it really did hurt!  I figure that it had to be a doozy if God was warning me in advance.  And, it was Steve who helped me to have some perspective and to be kind to this person in the coming days.  Here I sit now two hours after said incident and am much calmer.  I think that's just God, Steve can't get all the credit for that one. ;) But those incidents of vulnerability do stregthen my relationship with my husband.  God is pretty creative.  I'm sure there will be many more learnings in the coming days that I'll carry around with me and further carve my testimony with the Holy Spirit.  Tonight I'm going to rest in the knowledge that my Lord really, really loves me.  I dare say he adores me enough to let me get hurt and rebound into His loving spirit.  So was it necessary?  I guess so.  And maybe tomorrow I'll be grateful that it happened.

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