Let's Break Some Chains, People!

We've been in our new home for a wee over a month and I am completely smitten with her.  God has given my husband and I what we have individually and jointly wanted in a home ever since the 'dream house' discussions began when we were dating.  Little things like a front porch and bigger things like full size double hung windows in the unfinished basement.  It's just dreamy. 

Before moving into our new abode, God was working with me on letting me know this house was meant for us.  Just trusting Him that all was well and this path was laid out for us by Him.  It was awwwesome.  The only ease I can aliken it to is that peace I had when we were relocating from Virginia to Maryland.  I knew He was in it and guiding us the whole way.  More recently, He's showing me that I've had anxiety for years.  I didn't know it, never saw it in action.  Of course now that He's opened my eyes to it, I see it all the time.  I feel it rise up and I see how I've always 'handled' it.  Most alarming is that it's like the controlling spirit's nasty sidekick.  He's let me know that while He revealed the controlling spirit to me years ago, now we get to work it out.  It's really awkward.  At times I find myself at a loss of how to behave.  How does the Holy Spirit want to guide this child?  And then can I surrender to my creator in that instant, not just in hindsight?  My flesh is such a mess.  These spirits that I didn't know I was hosting have been running the show and only with God can I be so transparent to let Him have His way through me.  Okay, so all that is heavy, right?  At least I feel like it is.  The good news is that God loves this family line so much that He wants it cleaned up.  One ugly, thick vine at a time.  I always want a quick and easy (often pretty) ribbon to break and voila!, that's it, next!  But that's not God.  For as many generations as it's taken to have this massive root/spirit to feel like it's entitled to stay, it's going to take that many more baby steps on my part to walk with God and let Him do His thing.  His work that He's started He will finish, my only role is to surrender.  I'm so thankful that He loves us that much.  Most awesome is that prayerfully my children, His children will not walk around with this spirit in them. 

I pray that you who are reading this post can get on your knees and ask God to rid you of what hinders you from going deeper with Him.  Bring on the deliverance!!  Wooooo Hoooooo!!