For the last couple weeks I've been busy with the unpacking and nesting in our new home. It's beginning to feel more like a safe place to fall and it's growing on me. My heart still aches for the beautiful people that God has knitted into my heart from Maryland. I often feel many emotions at one time and find tears just run. On the flip side today I experienced a moment of pure joy that I've not felt in a long time. It was wonderful and I look forward to many more moments like that in the coming weeks. The door hasn't entirely closed for us in Severna Park. Our house was to go to settlement on March, 16th but the buyers had a change of heart and didn't make their appointment. It is back on the market and we are prayerful that God has the right family in mind for that precious neighborhood and house. I can be thankful for the family that didn't follow through on their commitment if only because they were the catalyst that allowed my family to be united.
In this season of difficulty and healing, I am thankful for the roof over our heads, the birdbath in my backyard and the music of wind chimes. Also I'm grateful for my daughter's smooth transition to a new school and my son's willingness to hang with Mommy while we are adapting to our new routine together. My husband is a different man. Not the weathered man I expected to see when we returned to Virginia, but a joyful and playful husband of years past that I have missed. I'm thankful for the changes in our marriage.
In August, just months before we faced this crisis in our lives, we attended a marriage semiar at church. It was incredible and I learned God was showing me how to support my husband, not just be his cheerleader. I didn't know what that looked like so you can imagine my wondering how it would be useful in our lives. I began looking for opportunities to support and serve my husband. Of course I believe I know now what He was preparing me/us for. I'm thankful for God's provision over our marriage, the act of telling me what my husband was going to need was a demonstration of His love for my husband.
God is always with me and His blessings are abundant. I'm in a time in my life where it's easy to focus on what I don't have or what hasn't been settled, but I know that God works ALL things out for my good. And I have to keep my eyes on Him or on my birdbath which is heaven to this girl's soul.
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